today at work my mind was racing and i had to make it stop. at one point i dropped some jam (it didn't break) and i had to stop and take a deep breath and make myself relax.

it pointed out to me that i do have a correct instinct. i do know the 'good' thing to do at most times throughout the day. i know that there are some subtle and some not so subtle choices that i make all day long and when i routinely make the 'wrong' choice or path of least resistance or apparent least resisitance, this further ingrains my bad habits into my personality.

but as in any positive expansion, making the choice that feels 'right' and continuing to do so gives you a sense of happiness, that you have kind of given something to yourself, i guess you've given yourself trust.

anyway i think its something to pay attention to and learn to cultivate so that i can become the person i want to be sooner! ;-)