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trevor's home"If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If You want to be happy, practice compassion." - His Holiness, Tenzin Gyatso, the 14th Dalai Lama September 14 Fear or Laziness An aside to my previous entry:
In the movie 'Waking Life' one of the discussions is about whether laziness or fear is the greatest hinderence to development of human consciousness. I've always wondered about this statement and I suspect that laziness itself is not seperate from fear, but a symptom of it. I think that laziness & inaction come from the act of not caring, which in turn comes from the act of not wanting to open yourself up, which is really the fear of allowing your consciousness into a situation.
If one is tired, one may be lazy because they don't feel they have the strength to enforce the mental walls they are used to upholding when going about the world. Choosing to enter a situation without those walls in the first place frees up more energy to experience the situation when you may have turned away previously. Things to RememberIf I am ever feeling anxious, weak, or simply lost, I want to remember these things:
The essence that is truly me as an individual craves peace. Peace and understanding allow me to thrive and feel happy & content.
I must recognize that acting any way contrary to this truth will bring me all the ills I fear. As soon as I divide myself and tell myself that an egoic aspect of myself is more important than this truth, happiness will dissolve and fear, discontentment, stress and apathy will grow.
It is a simple concept but one difficult to keep in constant action & motion. Yet I beleive it to be the one best for achieving great happiness. June 19 new blogI have a couple new blog entries on my tribe.net blog at http://people.tribe.net/trevorj
I'm trying to keep that one based on educational material I seek out.
-trevor June 06 good day's workI'm laying on my bed passing in and out of consciousness, half-napping and half listening to my roomate and his buddy conversate over some beers in front of the game. They just finished the local college's applied plumbing course and are sharing stories about tools, work, employers and careers. For my roomate this new direction he's taken is one of many options he's got as a young adult. For his friend, the story is a little more interesting. Norm is a 40-something year old NewFoundLander living on the West Coast for the first time. He's found a like-hearted group of friends in my roomate and myself and several others. He's been raised from humble, if not troubled beginnings and has been searching for that leg-up to get him: "what i rightfully deserves'!" And all he said was "That was a good day's work here today." He's so excited to be working. So excited to have a trade, to have a profession, a title, a job and a purpose. So excited to be able to focus on making a living on his own terms. It's a simple statement but coming from him it has more weight, its a pure statement of satisfaction - something I too crave and desire. So I ask myself, "What would I consider a good day's work?". What would leave me at the end of the day, satisfied and content? Spent and empty, yet full of pride and commitment?
I've searched in my mind through all of the jobs I should or could do. Through all of the qualities that inspire me. The environment, health, spirituality, social work, writing, not-for-profits, music, etc, etc, etc. I think that the quality that I most desire is working for the future. I have always been a dreamer. It is my resting state - to dream. But I am also a builder, creative and constructive. All I have to find is my vision. My vision for a unified and unique future. A new step for the people around me; the abundant, wealthy, intelligent & educated, creative, moral people around me. We live in a heaven here in the west. The vast majority of us are wealthy beyond belief. We live in the comfort of our stable homes with all our basic necessities ready at the flick of a switch. Of course there is poverty within our own society relative to our wealth but, when comparing our overall abundance to those in other parts of the world dying of thirst and starvation, we are a utopia.
But where can we go from here? How can we use our blessed circumstances and set a higher bar for the future? How can we provide our own beacon of light to the rest of the world, set an example and expand our perspective even wider?
I need to find the tangible form of these thoughts and dreams. Only then can I sleep better, only then can I breath easier, and connect to the present the way I am guided to do so. May 23 my quotethere is a person who stands directly between idealism and ignorance; i want to be him May 17 hipoemOne Cell KNew one new cell one new boy one new man one new mind one new thought one new eye one knew so one saw one one saw her once was enough i see me in you but not me, my equal my same and my opposite my yang and my yin i'm her, she's him April 08 CapricornI have asked myself so many times what it is I want to work toward, what is it that I ultimately want to BE in life. It is difficult for me to avoid getting sucked into the idea that a material profession is what I should work towards. Like, for instance, once I become a doctor I will be happy and can call myself a good person. A part of me knows that no matter what title I have, how much money I make, and what circles of friends I may be a part of, that these are all things that only create a sterotypical identity for me and that they are not my heart and soul. They don't represent the living compassion within and my feelings that yearn for peace, understanding and unity among all people and all living things. So what I want to work toward is really clearing the path ahead of me from all the things that I give into as distractions. Things I do that are selfish. Choices I make that usually give me temporary relief or satisfaction but ultimately create regret for me when I look at myself in the mirror in times of peace and quiet. I know that I've learned a lot of my recurrent patterns from my social upbringing. But as I get older, it feels like the guiding voice inside me is growing a bit louder and a bit stronger. All I want to do is honour that voice. When I honour that voice, everything else seems to co-operate in it's own unique way as well. -trevor |
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